hiatus for a long time.

fb is irritating the nice-ness out of me.

blogger is affected too.

i know my problems are trivial compared to the situation faced by Taiwaneses whose lives are ruined by the typhoon but please do hurry with the repair of the cables.

don't take one of the pleasures i look forward to after a hectic day at work.

so ya, thanks.

16 & 17 March
primary 6 camp at ChongZheng Primary School. my very first batch of school kids.

really enjoyed myself. but one of the sad thing was when i read their "My Family Goal", one of them wrote, "I hope that my parents will stop quarreling everyday."

i love my kids no matter what. in my heart, they are the best. wish them all the best for their PSLE.

18 - 20 March
WORK!!!

22 March


watched Departures. damn tearjerker. mum and sis cried pretty bad. LOL. went for dinner and slacked at the Sky Park.

23 & 24 March
WORK!!!

interviewed at Science Center. rushed to training.

25 March


taught at Pasir Ris Secondary. at the hall, the teachers were with their respective classes. we saw this young (funky) teacher don in sneakers, jeans, and a loud green pullover. a total teriary student dress style. they were saying that the teachers will be in the class during the lecture. firstly, i have never done this before. secondly, no proper training FOR ME. in conclusion, i was thrown to the tigers. so basically, i prayed reeeeeally hard that i won't get the young teacher's class as it will be totally embarrassing and nerve-wrecking.

in the end, i did.

i was assigned to that very class but luckily he wasn't there. *PHEW* the class was pretty ok. gonna see them three more time. will do my utmost best. jia you!

26 March
Pasir Ris Crest Secondary.
a group of students that ruined the whole class.

therefore, worst class ...yet.

felt better after talking with the others. i wasn't alone. all the classes were as hellish as one another.

don't wish to comment and badmouth further so let's just end it here.

tml is considered my day off. come to think of it, i am holding two jobs. am trying my best to earn as much as possible because of a particular event.

so many things to be done at home. tidy, clean and other stuff.

12.03.09


met up with sinyee and kaihiong at Suki place for the buffet. in my opinion, it is more value for money compared to Sakae Sushi buffet. later headed down to the IT Show at suntec. not as packed as the previous time i went with the guys. that time could not even see any of the floor. utterly horrible. rushed down to bugis for a briefing on friday event. finally bought the photo album to store my Speech Day 2005 photos. it was a steal for just $3.90! just nice for 4R photo and capacity of about 200 photos. oh and its from Popular. the irony is that, i chose a cartoon cat cover as it was the cutest. had my dinner at 9pm. wasn't over starved as i ate quite a bit more during the buffet.

13.03.09


total rubber time.

i was late. supposedly meeting up with fellow coaches at the mrt first before heading to Fort Canning Park together. i wasn't very late nor the last to arrive. we had almost a 3 hour lunch break because of the muslims went to the mosque and it was raining. we ended up playing some group games. one of it was kinda of a beating game which i have now a very big combined bruise the shape of a hand print on my right thigh. asshole. i hope i left the same thing on his too.


after the event, i rushed yet again to boon lay mrt to meet up with yingqi. my sis got us the tickets for the 大嘴巴 campus concert at NTU. we got lost. two guys were giggling at us when they saw us approaching a directory. another gay assholes. fortunately, we met a guy going to the same concert too. so we tagged along. he asked too many questions and seemed sissy to me. but i did appreciate his help. the concert was great! chongqing was the host and he was hilariously good. it lasted about an hour and we went to JP for dinner. dined at Burger King. chit chat for another hour. both my feet were aching as we were required to wear pumps for it was a corporate event. screwed it.

i had fun.

my apologies to yingqi if i seemed tired because i really am exhausted as i was up since 6am.

happy 20th birthday, babe!

14.03.09


celebration for jieming and jon chan 20th. steamboat-ed. another fun time. some of them wanted to played Jubeat. i wasn't bad myself. my game developer friend is currently perfecting his Jubeat application for iPhone. totally cool. didn't manage to have any dessert as hongda was afraid the shop being too crowded. *rolls eyes*

reminiscence our secondary school days at the train back home. stupid hongda teased me about weekiat out of nowhere. what's up with that.

looking forward for a mahjong date next week.

i want to thank my dad for sending me to a primary school in Tampines tomorrow for a camp which we are expected to report at 7am - screw it, again. thus, i get another extra 30 minutes of sleep.

wake up call tomorrow, 5.30am.

i only miss waking up early morning and looking forward to seeing leon at school. such activity keeps me motivated, active and happy.

i felt an explosion of emotions after reading a korean manhwa, Real Purple. its not really an incest sibling love as their parents remarried. only chapter one was released and am hoping for more. in addition, there is like 100+ over bookmarked manga which is totally impossible for me to read them all. what was i thinking then, bookmarking everything i fancy? oh well, looking forward to more of Real Purple. guess i'm gonna delete all my bookmarks, too tedious to finish all. however, incest relationship seem really popular among manga. looks like fun. haa, and no, i'm not crazy. i'm just in for the excitement and thrills.

just now watched a local television programme about a Home catering to mental illness people. it is pretty 心酸. every time i watched such programmes, i will also have an urge to volunteer myself. may be even be a teacher specializing in such a profession. it will be great if i can bring smiles to them. i think it will be much more fulfilling than other things.

when you're young, everything seems possible.

was watching The Duke this noon and their topic was "Is 30 the new 20?".
which brings me to another topic of mature guys. they have a certain charm and charisma that attracts me. but hopefully not overly egoistic or masochistic kind.

total put off.

got three calls this morning. which is good. going for a briefing this thursday evening. this friday, next monday and tuesday tentatively booked.

feeling damn sleepy now. ironed my clothes and cooked lunch. so tiring. have to do the laundry later too. may be i should take a quick nap and tidy up my stuff before my schedule gets hectic.

two things i gotta plan fast.
one. jieming's birthday
two. date with fongeng and kasinah

i should really get into the sleep-early-wake-up-early thing.

life is just too short to be wasted aimlessly.

and so i speak.

ytd was great. class bbq was fun. pictures up at facebook. only zhenshun and i did all the preparation stuff and we shared the homemade "cup corn". he was overly enthu and added too much butter. i was only kidding when i suggested reusing the butter for the bbq later and he agreed. played with the dog. mahjong-ed. guys did most of the bbq-ing except for vincent. drank finished the vodka. the night ended with heavy rain. chingying took a cab back, vincent and i tagged along. thanks big bell!!! it really cut down my travelling time.

today was... complicated.

skipped lunch. ate only 3 muffins.

headed to bugis for an interview. sis accompanied me. met her friends and rushed to suntec city. waited for jieming. went the career and education 2009. nothing much there. guess i'm the non-target audience. listened to a seminar which i dozed off for awhile. crapped with him on the train home. back home, there was an electricity surge. even the bus stop lights went out. when dad lighted the second candle, the lights went back.

some thing happened. was it his voice that made me go ga-ga all over again? or was it just nothing ...?

i believe that i have moved on.
so... good bye, Past.

it was brought to my attention that the weather has been havoc! hot and sunny during the day and pouring showers at the night. hopes Gaia gets better.

this week is hectic! and i'm on halfway through it.

went out with yingqi on monday. relived our tuition days memories, roamed around IMM. headed home to make jellies for tuesday's picnic.

the picnic at Hort Park wasn't really foiled. we did have fun and had our picnic too but not exactly as planned. the photos taken was fab! the after rain effect on the plants were great. the downside was that, we were being feasted on by the mosquitoes. had a proper meal at vivo caused i was seriously starving.

wednesday was my 'off' day. watched Marley & Me, and cried. plus, i did a proper design for my blog. still learning the wonders of XTML. before than was the photoshop brushes crap, won't bother explaining here. it is far too lame. however, i was pretty proud that i took less than 2 hours to come up with my main image - headphone girl (btw, not illustrated by me). i was just doodling, mix and matching stuff till my inspiration came - the pointy tree with hanging pictures and heart sticks. the whole black & white was just a random put together which turned out pretty dope.

i am supposed to be in bed at 2330hr but here i am, blogging.

so clueless as how to celebrate jieming's birthday. yanxi isn't much of a help either, he was better off emo-ing at the stupidest things. though he did suggested some thing. brandon probably still at his chalet. jieming wasn't keen on going 3 monkey club either, oh it should be cafe and not club. *AH!!!*

my mosquito bites are starting to itch real badly.

guess it's time to recharge.

poly unofficially ended.
overwhelmed with mixed emotions.

i have no idea on what i am going to do after graduation or as a career choice. i am also not particularly interested to discuss about my future. i detest the feeling of hanging onto a line. and all this comes with an irony which i am not going to explore further.

for now, i will just enjoy myself to the fullest. life is just so like ...life.

i choose to live my life happily and not be chained down by the seven deadly sins. others can do what they deem, and whatever they do shall not affect me too adversely. for i live for myself.

pretty literature-ish. i like literature. i score well for it therefore i like it. another irony.

sis says i should go into the creative line. i do like the sounds of it. but am i really cut off for it? i mean i can survive on it as a hobby, however, as my rice bowl - unpredictable. the third irony.

everyone is affected by the economy crisis one way or another. i am doing my part to support myself even though i can't deny the fact that i am still financially dependent on my parents. did i smell yet another irony there? and it got me thinking. i studied so much on eCommerce and eBusiness stuff, so why can't i make use of that. that's another irony for you.

talking about further studies. i realised that our educational institute building structures fail in comparison to this (below picture):


i do love to study and stay there.

this is beyond "going retro". it is living the life.

for me at least.

perhaps at there, i will meet some aristocrats and marry him, start a family and live the life.

i was telling my gbtg's babes that i want to date some mafia's son. takeover the family business, work behind the scenes as its still a man society rule. ...guess i should stop watching those mafia shows, or maybe start practicing kung fu for protection.

2009 will be an eventful year.

looking forward.

i feel like i'm stuck in a whirlwind of ...everything in the world.

lately, i have been reading quite a lot. books, magazines, newspapers, etc. there are so many shocking news. bad rules over good ones. a British boy becomes a dad at 13. an exorcism court case about a mentally questioned woman suing two priests. a former female teacher charged with having sex with her minor ex-student. she reported the crime because she found the boy too obsessive and threaten to kill her family. mildly retarded family with multiple rape cases. sis commented that how can a mildly retarded dad be allowed to take care of his mildly retarded children and even take in yet another retarded brother-in-law.

such news seems surreal and they are just some from the tip of the tip of the ice berg. teacher and student affairs often illustrated in manga that are materialising in reality. what is happening to this world? with the economic crisis and all this disheartening news, its only the second month of the year. not to mention the chris brown and rihanna case.

that aside. newpapers often commented about how the internet lacks human interactions. i beg to differ. people are more willingly to open up to their blog or facebook than when face-to-face with family or friends.

how do we catch up on our friends' daily affairs? we read their blogs.

want to know what our friends are doing or are currently involved with what? we tag, throw sheeps at them in facebook, and even put them up for sale.

for me, an old primary school good friend found me.

yes, internet is undoubtedly the greatest invention or some sort.

but what are the price that we paid for putting our entire life online?

mahjong-ed for two consecutive days. =)

just had wba paper on last friday. went to chingying's house for lunch and mahjong, to satisfy my itch for mahjong since cny. bwahahahaa~ played for a short though. headed home and jumped straight at my bed. was pretty exhausted by the test.

watched the korean drama, Sassy Girl, Choon-hyang, on channel U. wanted more so went to watch it online. ended up watching from episode one to six. ommmg! watched till 3am. (--") the later part was pretty sad and i ended up with a blocked nose that caused me difficulty in breathing when i went to sleep. no more tearjerker dramas at night for me!!!

this is roughly how late my family slept.
dad slept early at 10pm.
sis went to her AFTH thingy at Toa Payoh Hub at 9pm cause the management only allow them to set up at 11pm. that's damn stupid. so she did till 3am.
mum came back from her outing with friends at 2.30am. somehow dad woke up at that time and they chit-chatted.
at 4am, folks went to fetch sis.
all deep asleep by 5am.
sis woke up at 8am for her AFTH which starts at 11am.
folks and i woke up at 11am and went out.

sis was nearly awake for 24hrs.

at friday night, jieming and yanxi asked me out for mahjong on saturday. very last minute. but we only confirmed at the noon the next day. met up with jieming first then went hongda's house. played mahjong from 3pm to 7.30pm. bryan came too but he didn't know how to play mahjong so he watched tv, played with his laptop, psp and ds, and took an afternoon nap at the couch. break for dinner at the pretty pathetic multi-storey hawker centre.

jieming was persistent on getting his waffle from prima deli. i ended up not eating any cause this yanxi went to eat mine. mine was plain and his with cheese. the plain waffle was in the bag labelled cheese, cheese waffle in chocolate bag, and chocolate in the plain bag. in the end, he ate two waffles. walked to ntuc as hongda wanted to buy bread. that building was haunted looking. no one living there except for the stores at the ground floor. its like those horror hongkong movies, the flats facing each other. all the lights were lit up at each block each level. broken window panels. spolit doors. creepy. went back his house for more mahjong and jieming taught me how to play bridge. in the middle of the game, mum called to ask if i had forgotten to return home. it was already past 11pm then.

mum was damn funny la, first, at noon she asked if my friends were all guys, and added not to play anything else besides mahjong. then about 10pm she sms me saying, wow you forgot to return home. my folks went vivo city for the night to date and mum sarcastically said that they had a full satisfying meal because there was no one to compete for the plate of wu xiang. dad added that usually after one or two glances at the wu xiang, it will be gone. both of them indirectly shooting at sis and me. also, they had already made plans on what to eat for their next date. way to go.

i forgotten what we talked about and the guys suddenly became interested in yanxi's personal life. don't know whether is to "suan" him or what. when he talked about his online girlfriend whom he knew through maple story, i couldn't helped but told them that i felt pretty uncomfortable with the mature topic. if not, i think he might go into details with it. i am not against him or anything but the guys were too comfortable with my presence till they had forgotten that i'm a pure innocent girl. tsktsk. and this blardy hongda, out of nowhere he mentioned about leon. saying things like he is a good guy, they're in the same camp and are good friends, and that he has his number. i dared him to call leon but he refused as he didn't want me to hear his voice. huuuh, WTH! its like he dangled leon in front of me to let me taste a bit then when i got hooked, he put it away. i really felt like body slamming on him, wwe style.

i hitched a ride from jieming and bryan. we sat the mercedes taxi. the ride was still smooth even though he sped. nice. i reached home in less than 10 minutes.

the night was cold but fun.

time to work hard again.

let's say that today was the last day of school, with actual tutorial and lecture.

school has ended.

having mixed emotions. oh well, won't dwell on it too much. tml having WBA final test and i'm not done with my revision at all.

AHHH!

shall go and mush on my Subway Double Chocolate Chip Cookie from chingying for more brain power. hmm, 姐 is napping so maybe i'll keep half of it for her... if i don't finish it. bwahahhahaa!

Recently it has been raining a lot.

it was an eventful first month of 2009. most noticeable will be my final year in poly. scary, yes. now i understand why adults ask us, kids, to enjoy our studies while we are at school. working life, is not pleasant nor nice at all. oh man, all the negative thoughts even before i work. actually, i want to relive my secondary school period. i should have muster the courage to do the things that i wanted to, and not regretting it now.

next, really looking forward to after poly activities. so many things lined up.

chinese new year was great! got to wear my new clothes and other new stuff. now that i think about it, my clothes could last for 2 or 3 chinese new years. see, i did my part in contributing to the economy. i wonder if my polymates are interested in luo hei. haa, looks like fun mah.

however, my ex-colleague from my attachment company told me that her mum had passed away last december therefore she was unable to go visiting. it came as a shock as i wasn't expecting her to tell me that during the festive period, on 初一 some more. at my attachment, i already knew about her mum's condition and that she had about another 6 more months to live. she told me over lunch, just the two of us, and i didn't know how to console her but tried my best to. i have to admit that i don't really know how to handle such situation. likewise on monday, my dad told me that he went to attend one of his old navy friend's wake. his friend was just diagnoised early last month only. sad news in a joyious occasion.

i guess i shall catch up with all my friends. primary, secondary, pae, poly, others after my final examinations. yes, i should. busy busy busy. but i will be damn lazy to travel without a bus concession. yes, i am contradicting myself.

i am feeling SO EMO!!!
the reason is because i'm listening to My MVP Valentine OST. heard BoA's Waiting on tv and got connected with it once again. i have a weak thing for emo songs. OMG, i finally found the most emo-est song that i like in that drama. internet rules.

some good news are that my stock, iea paper and wisp are OVER! yes, done, gone, finished. left with one prototype presentation tml, wba final test on friday, IIP presentation and final report next thursday and lastly two more exam module and ITS DONE.

suddenly, i feel speechless. overwhelmed with excitement and emo-ness. ytd i was reading all those oneshot manga online, and came across a sentence something like this, "Life of the left behind has the burden of redemption for the rest of his life." i feel more emo now. but what got me going was that one of the lead charactor mentioned, "I will more forward with the burden on me alone to become stronger. So that no one else will be left behind nor cry when I die." i wish that my guy were this cool too.

today has been labelled as one of the lamest day. we had to go to school to get the feedback for a PBL presentation for a module that is OVER. i thought the tutor would give us back our marks too. he talked to us for less than 10 minutes and we were dismissed. ...dumbfolded. and the silliest mistake i made today was that i sprayed guy cologne in my study room because i thought it needed a little smell to perk me up. my nose is rejecting it now. my sister and i are really sisters. why? cause on monday she used it on herself for fun, and i thought maybe my sister smuggled a guy into our house which was impossible as i was watching television in the living room. oh well. the lame things that we do.

it is going to rain real soon. may it wash away all my insecurities and show me the light.


oooh, with him, my world is brightening up already!

=]

yes. after doing so many pptx, and discovered the pleasure and joy from doing the cheat version of Flash from ppsx.

penny for my thoughts are that _______ and _______ are extremely toxic and dangerous stuff to be dealt with. life just ain't getting any easier. are obstacles there to strengthen and mold us towards the future? or are they just there to remind us that our very existence means no more than just living things occupying the space of the Mother Earth?

listening to emo songs too much from my phone is not really very idealistic. oh well, it's complicated.

three songs that I want to recommend:

Generation - Simple Plan


imeem still doesn't have this song. LAO YA, KAY! it's already been so long. tsktsk. btw, this is one of Heros OST.

Bounce - The Cab


while i was ironing my clothes and paying attention to the song lyrics, i heard this phrase "when you use your lips, it better be on me." talk about being possessive.

Broken Strings - James Marrison Ft. Nelly Furtado


also on music. Lady GaGa's Just Dance & Poker Face sounds awfully familiar on certain notes to each other.

Just Dance


Poker Face


on the way home after class, i saw a particular primary school friend of mine. blah blah blah... well, its way too complicated to be written in words. emo music plus this friend, i felt very more emo.

then out of nowhere, it got me thinking ahead and thoughts came striking down at me like lightings.

the goal of it is so simple but we humans chose to complicate the process.

for now, i will take a step and a bit more at a time.

on a lighter note.
it is gonna rain soon. heavily. TAKE COVER!!!
best time to sleep and STOP BEING A FLY ON THE WALL!

Below are the events of 2008. the last week was damn happening.

as quoted, "Picture speaks a thousand words", henceforth, i will let the photos tell the story.

20 Sep: Singapore Flyer







F1 race course & audience area.







31 Oct: Halloween @ Night Safari

AWESOME FLAMES!
isn't my photography skills improving? *SMILES*


masterpiece bodies.






sis with the night show host.

15 Nov: HardRock Cafe, Nat's Birthday Celebration

other group pictures went MIA. sad.

19 Dec: FeiLunHai Concert @ Indoor Stadium





the boy band was actually in the white shot there.
"ah, their popularity is just too glaring to see!"


good luck hearing!

27 Dec: 4A1 Gathering @ Waraku







bryan so emo. LOL.






specially posted for Ms Lee YingQi.
i hope this fills your lust for him. *GRINS*

28 Dec: PJ Sleepover Party

beware, bandits!


stress explosion.


there's like a million more photos.
it was a hell of a fun time.
<3

31 Dec: NYD Countdown 2008





see the star at the corner. totally accidental that's why it is nice.


bestie looks like there was those industrial fan blowing at him.


sparkleees~



the end.

stay tune more for 2009 events.

*APPLAUSE*