poly unofficially ended.
overwhelmed with mixed emotions.

i have no idea on what i am going to do after graduation or as a career choice. i am also not particularly interested to discuss about my future. i detest the feeling of hanging onto a line. and all this comes with an irony which i am not going to explore further.

for now, i will just enjoy myself to the fullest. life is just so like ...life.

i choose to live my life happily and not be chained down by the seven deadly sins. others can do what they deem, and whatever they do shall not affect me too adversely. for i live for myself.

pretty literature-ish. i like literature. i score well for it therefore i like it. another irony.

sis says i should go into the creative line. i do like the sounds of it. but am i really cut off for it? i mean i can survive on it as a hobby, however, as my rice bowl - unpredictable. the third irony.

everyone is affected by the economy crisis one way or another. i am doing my part to support myself even though i can't deny the fact that i am still financially dependent on my parents. did i smell yet another irony there? and it got me thinking. i studied so much on eCommerce and eBusiness stuff, so why can't i make use of that. that's another irony for you.

talking about further studies. i realised that our educational institute building structures fail in comparison to this (below picture):


i do love to study and stay there.

this is beyond "going retro". it is living the life.

for me at least.

perhaps at there, i will meet some aristocrats and marry him, start a family and live the life.

i was telling my gbtg's babes that i want to date some mafia's son. takeover the family business, work behind the scenes as its still a man society rule. ...guess i should stop watching those mafia shows, or maybe start practicing kung fu for protection.

2009 will be an eventful year.

looking forward.

let's say that today was the last day of school, with actual tutorial and lecture.

school has ended.

having mixed emotions. oh well, won't dwell on it too much. tml having WBA final test and i'm not done with my revision at all.

AHHH!

shall go and mush on my Subway Double Chocolate Chip Cookie from chingying for more brain power. hmm, 姐 is napping so maybe i'll keep half of it for her... if i don't finish it. bwahahhahaa!

Recently it has been raining a lot.

it was an eventful first month of 2009. most noticeable will be my final year in poly. scary, yes. now i understand why adults ask us, kids, to enjoy our studies while we are at school. working life, is not pleasant nor nice at all. oh man, all the negative thoughts even before i work. actually, i want to relive my secondary school period. i should have muster the courage to do the things that i wanted to, and not regretting it now.

next, really looking forward to after poly activities. so many things lined up.

chinese new year was great! got to wear my new clothes and other new stuff. now that i think about it, my clothes could last for 2 or 3 chinese new years. see, i did my part in contributing to the economy. i wonder if my polymates are interested in luo hei. haa, looks like fun mah.

however, my ex-colleague from my attachment company told me that her mum had passed away last december therefore she was unable to go visiting. it came as a shock as i wasn't expecting her to tell me that during the festive period, on 初一 some more. at my attachment, i already knew about her mum's condition and that she had about another 6 more months to live. she told me over lunch, just the two of us, and i didn't know how to console her but tried my best to. i have to admit that i don't really know how to handle such situation. likewise on monday, my dad told me that he went to attend one of his old navy friend's wake. his friend was just diagnoised early last month only. sad news in a joyious occasion.

i guess i shall catch up with all my friends. primary, secondary, pae, poly, others after my final examinations. yes, i should. busy busy busy. but i will be damn lazy to travel without a bus concession. yes, i am contradicting myself.

i am feeling SO EMO!!!
the reason is because i'm listening to My MVP Valentine OST. heard BoA's Waiting on tv and got connected with it once again. i have a weak thing for emo songs. OMG, i finally found the most emo-est song that i like in that drama. internet rules.

some good news are that my stock, iea paper and wisp are OVER! yes, done, gone, finished. left with one prototype presentation tml, wba final test on friday, IIP presentation and final report next thursday and lastly two more exam module and ITS DONE.

suddenly, i feel speechless. overwhelmed with excitement and emo-ness. ytd i was reading all those oneshot manga online, and came across a sentence something like this, "Life of the left behind has the burden of redemption for the rest of his life." i feel more emo now. but what got me going was that one of the lead charactor mentioned, "I will more forward with the burden on me alone to become stronger. So that no one else will be left behind nor cry when I die." i wish that my guy were this cool too.

today has been labelled as one of the lamest day. we had to go to school to get the feedback for a PBL presentation for a module that is OVER. i thought the tutor would give us back our marks too. he talked to us for less than 10 minutes and we were dismissed. ...dumbfolded. and the silliest mistake i made today was that i sprayed guy cologne in my study room because i thought it needed a little smell to perk me up. my nose is rejecting it now. my sister and i are really sisters. why? cause on monday she used it on herself for fun, and i thought maybe my sister smuggled a guy into our house which was impossible as i was watching television in the living room. oh well. the lame things that we do.

it is going to rain real soon. may it wash away all my insecurities and show me the light.


oooh, with him, my world is brightening up already!

=]

one paper down. three more to go.

^^V

and hoiyan replied my sms. hope after my common test, there is an available day for us to go out.

a music video by SuperJunior M, Me. a sub group from SuperJunior. they are a korean group, no offense here but, i could not hear what language they were singing. it is not korean ...but mandarin.


=]
were you thinking what i was thinking?
- "Huuh? What the hell???"

it proves one point that korean best not to sing and pronounce mandarin so fast at the same time, and the way his mouth moves - hilarious.

and since this is the month of X'mas, there are X'mas advertisments!

Like...


and then there is horror thai-korean flick...


yes, we already know that Rain is a bad boy. so enough. there was two color for suits, black and white. for the white one, his backup dancers' outfit remains black, boo-hoo. also, why is there a scarf wrapping half of his waist? so not nice. if you notice, other than him and his backup dancers, the rest of people are eurporean "vampires". at certain scene, he looks like he is wearing eyeliner though not as thick as those eurporean's.

lastly, the oh-so controvensional topic of TVXQ lastest song, Mirotic.


my verdict is ...so ...where's the sex? what inappropiate parts?

fyi. Rainism and Mirotic, etc are censored for under 19 years old. HUH? tsk. those people have not heard Eminem at all. hardly any skin exposure from the guys either. at 03:05 min, that guy with the undescribable mushroom haircut - way to go.

aint they just adorable???