Recently it has been raining a lot.

it was an eventful first month of 2009. most noticeable will be my final year in poly. scary, yes. now i understand why adults ask us, kids, to enjoy our studies while we are at school. working life, is not pleasant nor nice at all. oh man, all the negative thoughts even before i work. actually, i want to relive my secondary school period. i should have muster the courage to do the things that i wanted to, and not regretting it now.

next, really looking forward to after poly activities. so many things lined up.

chinese new year was great! got to wear my new clothes and other new stuff. now that i think about it, my clothes could last for 2 or 3 chinese new years. see, i did my part in contributing to the economy. i wonder if my polymates are interested in luo hei. haa, looks like fun mah.

however, my ex-colleague from my attachment company told me that her mum had passed away last december therefore she was unable to go visiting. it came as a shock as i wasn't expecting her to tell me that during the festive period, on 初一 some more. at my attachment, i already knew about her mum's condition and that she had about another 6 more months to live. she told me over lunch, just the two of us, and i didn't know how to console her but tried my best to. i have to admit that i don't really know how to handle such situation. likewise on monday, my dad told me that he went to attend one of his old navy friend's wake. his friend was just diagnoised early last month only. sad news in a joyious occasion.

i guess i shall catch up with all my friends. primary, secondary, pae, poly, others after my final examinations. yes, i should. busy busy busy. but i will be damn lazy to travel without a bus concession. yes, i am contradicting myself.

i am feeling SO EMO!!!
the reason is because i'm listening to My MVP Valentine OST. heard BoA's Waiting on tv and got connected with it once again. i have a weak thing for emo songs. OMG, i finally found the most emo-est song that i like in that drama. internet rules.

some good news are that my stock, iea paper and wisp are OVER! yes, done, gone, finished. left with one prototype presentation tml, wba final test on friday, IIP presentation and final report next thursday and lastly two more exam module and ITS DONE.

suddenly, i feel speechless. overwhelmed with excitement and emo-ness. ytd i was reading all those oneshot manga online, and came across a sentence something like this, "Life of the left behind has the burden of redemption for the rest of his life." i feel more emo now. but what got me going was that one of the lead charactor mentioned, "I will more forward with the burden on me alone to become stronger. So that no one else will be left behind nor cry when I die." i wish that my guy were this cool too.

today has been labelled as one of the lamest day. we had to go to school to get the feedback for a PBL presentation for a module that is OVER. i thought the tutor would give us back our marks too. he talked to us for less than 10 minutes and we were dismissed. ...dumbfolded. and the silliest mistake i made today was that i sprayed guy cologne in my study room because i thought it needed a little smell to perk me up. my nose is rejecting it now. my sister and i are really sisters. why? cause on monday she used it on herself for fun, and i thought maybe my sister smuggled a guy into our house which was impossible as i was watching television in the living room. oh well. the lame things that we do.

it is going to rain real soon. may it wash away all my insecurities and show me the light.


oooh, with him, my world is brightening up already!

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